Everything is everything

Hello good people. It’s been a few days since my last post, and I have quite a bit to catch you up on! But, baby steps; one thing at a time! First, I’ll address my last post, “On the Beach: Reality Sets In,” as that’s the most logical place to start.

As many of you know, my educational and career paths (along with my personal life, perhaps) have had their fair share of ups and downs. Sometimes it feels like I can’t catch a break, you know? But, I also have this incredible ability to bounce back and bounce back fast. Well, in all honesty. I bounced back the day after I posted my frustrations with staffing, but I had no internet access. Do I feel capricious for having posted one thing and for now being in an entirely different state of mind? Not at all. I think sometimes people watch my bounce back without ever having witnessed the fall, and they think I never have my struggles. Some people, I know, think it’s easier for me than it is for themselves or for others. I don’t think this is so, and maybe I just have to do a better job of expressing my frustrations when they do arise for people to see that.

Anyway, back to my staffing status. As of right now, I’m still unstaffed, but I I’ve come to terms with it. As I’ve said, nothing in my life has yet gone as I’d planned. Even my current placement as a staff consultant in a large firm was not what I’d originally planned or wanted for myself. But, it’s all worked out. Almost all of my big, life plans have been shot down, and I’ve had to pull myself together and push on. I’ve had to re-evaluate my position, pull my shit together and start making moves. And, I have to say that I’m pretty happy with, and proud of, the results. I’ve trusted myself to get this far, and I shouldn’t think that I can’t work it out now.

I appreciate the support from all of you very much. I chuckle to myself when you tell me that they’re saving the best jobs for me, because I’m the best. I know they’re not saving anything for me in particular, and it’s okay. I’ll work with what I get and I’ll maneuver my way up. I’ve been lucky enough to have always done it up until now, and I don’t plan on stopping. Like good old Lauryn Hill says, “Everything is everything. What is meant to be will be.” I like to think that I’m meant to be at the top, even if I have to put in all the work to get there. 

Stephen